i really love u ibu...

I feel sometimes like I've truly lost my way
Sometimes it's hard to make it through the day
When I have the chance to sit and think
I stare ahead and never stop to blink
My heart is loudly crying out for you
My soul is crying out for love so true
I don't know how I've made it this long
I don't know how I've stayed so strong
I guess I am waiting for the day
When all of my pain will go away
It's been so hard without you by my side
Losing you took away so much of my pride
You are part of me, a piece of my soul
And until you find me, I will never be whole
I am so sorry that I let you go
And hope one day that you will know
That all I wanted was the best for you
Even though it's torn my world in two
The only reason I am still alive
Is the hope that you'll be by my side
I want you to know wherever you are
That even if the distance is far
You are always here in my heart and soul
And that I'm leaving this is God's control
One day he'll send you back to me
One day my heart will again be free
My love for you will never end
When you're back, my heart will mend
Just know a daughters love is forever

Even if we are not together

***moral of the poem is.......i dun want to be far from u ibu..can't imagine if i lost u..can't imagine who will replace u since nobody will never do as much as u..u r the greatest mum in this whole universe..u r my real shoulder to cry on..i miss u n every single of u..***

kepada pn fadzilah mohd piah..sya mengerti anda tidak mempunyai blog..frenster or facebook..tapi anda mempunyai akaun di hati sya..sya rindu ibu sya...waaaa...ibu..nk ayam msk kicap!!adik janji tmbah nasi 3kali...heheh..

~lame tak update..let start da story..~

huhu..
lame gak tak mengupdatekan blog dgn citer2 panas..haha[panas kewr]..nway..lately aku sgt bz..bz ngn keje..bz ngn lecture..bz ngn problem..adeyh..sedeyh menjadi safa buat seketika..bydaway wat to do..
my previous post shows my feeling at that time..can't imagine to stop loving sumone u love..okla lagi..bak kate ibu..syona kan kuat..kuat la sgt..sigh~

as usual aku kna keje cm bese..so problem pn cm dibawa terbang buat seketika..HAPPY :)

owh yer..hmpir terlupe..my new experience..aku involve as da PEMAMER for UM EXPO..tak sesuai tol name tu..tapi yg bestnye aku blja bnda baru..rupe2nye byk research kat um niyh..termasuklah my final project..i'm just happy being there,not just bcoz i'm the presenter..malah kitorg tak present pn..dr zul yg present..tp dis programme really educate me on wat the main reason people doing research..contoh pling senang dean of my faculty baru je bagi talk about their group research on phosphorus yang sbnrnye bermanfaat utk kegunaan manusia but once disalahgunakan akn menghancurkan kiter...tak smpai seminggu talk tu..kluar brita israel gunakan bom fosforus di semenanjung gaza..skali lagi..research is very important..aku ckp ni takde la unsur2 ape pn..bkn jga kerana aku wat research for final projek sem ni..dun get me wrong ya..just nk kagumla..untuk um expo ni pn cm ade menang kalah..so pojek sape power bleyh la dpt gold medal..as usual dr zul tak mengidamkan medal..he just want us to get the experience,build the confident and get the certificate..but finally we manage to get the SILVER MEDAL..proud to make my supervisor happy becoz myself n su vei[my partner] adalah experiment pertama die..haha..die tak penah amik projek student lagi b4 dis..


coating system group & su vei..my lab partner



poster group kitorg..
seperti biasa..si kecik ni x ketinggalan..

erm..
arini aku jauh lebih lemah dari hari2 yg lepas..aku cube menjadi yg memahami..bahkan aku berjaya utk x menganggu lagi..aku sendiri keliru..semoga doa nadia dimakbulkan kali ni...Ya Rabb..Kau mengetahui setiap yg aku sembunyi..aku snggup ape jua..tolongla jgn terbitkan rase benci mereka padaku..kpd sang matahari..ampunkan kesilapan nadia slama ni..insan yg hina mencipta nama dihati sang matahari..semoga kau mampu kecapi kejayaanmu..itu tetap doaku..selamat segalanya..insyaAllah..ade jodoh kte jumpa lagi...

:::...vitacare(punca rezeki..hihi)...::::

mlm td mmg aku tdo lmbt..bese la balik keje layan zati[my rumate]..actually bkn la layan sgt pn..aku ni kan mmg ske bercerita..so just telling her ape yg jdi kat vitacare utk hari ini..

nak jdi cite pagi ni aku bgn gile lmbt..dh la kna g keje yg memerlukan aku kuar bilik kul 8.15..problemnye 7.45 aku bru bgn..adeyh..subuh gajah la aku pg niyh...pas mandi2 sume trus gerak..jln kaki lak tu dri 8th ni..adoiyai..lucky aku smpai2 je bus stop ade bus...perkara ni jarang berlaku..besenye pakcik bas tu ske ati die je nk dtg kul bpe...n i hve to wait..besela kan..then aku smpai amcorp awal la jgk...lupe lak arini kak rose one minit yg bukak kdai..sian die..name die kat rose one minit sbb sume bnda yg die wat..die akn suh org lain tunggu..for exmple..die nk btulkan sanggul die tatkala sume org dh tunggu kat luar nk balik..mau aje kitorg kunci die kat dlm..whahaha..jhtnyer diorg...aku tak termasukla..so disebbkan die yg bukak sepatutnye aku bleyh je jln lepak2..takyah jln cm nk masuk walk 4 charity yg seakan2 berlari..tp apekan dya aku lupe kak rose yg bukak..

smlm kecoh kat vitacare tak cukup staff..aku sempat dgr miss catherine@pharmacist ckp we need a full time staff..mane taknyer aku mmg part time weekend je..jambu lak part time 5.15-9.15 je..ira last minggu ni-die dh start skolah isnin ni..so mmg staff tak cukup..aku curik dgr lagi..michelle dak part time gak..tp dak ni suke ati nenek die je nk dtg or tak..die cekgu kindergarten sblh pagi..so ptg die dtg..but sumtimes tak dtg..n dak ni pn miss cat nk bentikan..sape la nk staff cmni..adoi..diambik lak satu indian gurl..ntah prima kowt name die..dak tunggu result spm yg just dtg sehari je keje n then abg die call prima nk resign..ape da..pening lagi pale amma catherine kitorg ni..

tetibe pagi ni.................jeng3..aku ngn kak ros bz2 clean up kdai..bese la mop2 sapu2..keje cm cleaner seketika..huhu..farmasi kna arr bersih..skali ade org bukak grill..kak ros n aku tgk2 arr..mane tau penyamun ke pagi2 ni..huhu..skali jambu..ape ke hal dak ni dtg pg..bkn die masuk keje ptg kewr??rupe2 nye dak ni slh tgk jadual..ok takpela..die tdo kat blkg..aku pn sambung keje..tetibe kak yana dtg..minah ni je full time..die pn suppose dtg ptg..tpi die masuk pg..makin ramai la staff pagi ni..miss cat call..aku angkat..die pesan ade new staff masuk arini..ganti prima..ok la..i just hav to wait..n jap g ajar la die wat keje..tetibe si prima ni dtg dgn selambe nyer...sume org tgk each other..aik bkn dah benti kewr dak ni???smakin tak paham..actually aku pn 1st time tgk die..almaklum la aku keje weekend je..tak lame pastu..dtg lak dak baru yg mmg akn start arini..hahah..aku rase lawak gile..sume nk dtg pagi la kan...pening2..penuh staff..smlm pnye la tak de staff..bile miss kuceng masukk..ape lagi..ngamuk la amma tu..trus cm drama dlm vitacare tu..dipecat nyer si primaWARA tu..hehe..sian aku tgk..tp ye la..spe suh ko pepandai bitau abg ko yg ko nk benti..so skrg DIBERHENTIKAN..sian3..

tetibe dh lbih kurg tgh hari skit..si michelle lak dtg..ape ke jadah nyer dak ni dtg???adoi...aku yakin amma akn lbih bengang kali ni..aku jambu n kak yana cm dh ready la nk tgk drama lagi satu..rupe2nye amma tak larat nk marah..just suh dak tu balik je la..so sorg lagi kna buang...hihi..ape aje la vitacre ni...tunggu episod seterusnyer yer...tpi next week la plak..aku dh ready nk tdo..esok class lagi..topek pown rajin basuh kain..so takleyh kaco...nite2..

hari ni hari demam..

kebosanan dok kat bilik tnpa wat pape...ngadap laptop je..tak de idea nk wat ape la cuti2 ni..mlm afta maghrib topek call n dia kat kfc..jln kaki g kfc kat gate 9th tu punye la jauh..rupenye die tak selera mkn kat kolej...then die balik n bwk kfc n both of us mkn2 kat starbux..dok dgr gak die cm selsema..n me myself pn dh mmg rase nk demam..pas mkn..kitorg g kdai bli panadol...dua2 pengsan kat bilik pas mkn ubt..plus perut pn dh kenyang..bgn pagi ni..demam mkin truk lak..saket tekak cm ade org tgh pegang ank tekakku..hoho...sgt la tak sehat...jgn la dmm smpai esok sbb aku kna keje esok..adeyh...